The many links to the truth keep me sane.

For some weeks now, months in fact, I have been instructed on how to stay centred, to allow God's energy to flow through and outward. Basically, letting the energy do the work as I live and love from my soul and not my ego. 

This made so much sense and has been really helpful, but I was a bit concerned that it didn't completely resonate with my Christian faith. Then, the amazing thing about this Christian workshop that I went to on the weekend led by a Dr in clinical therapy and Pastor of the Lutheran Church in America, was that he was saying exactly the same thing, only putting it into biblical terms, namely putting off the old self or mind that doesn't serve us or anyone else well and putting on the new, like a piece of clothing I guess, but it is so much more than that. You actually have Christ's Spirit at work in you. I know it all sounds rather cliche and in a way I have known the theory on this since the very beginning, but most of my Christian life I have not been able to fully connect my complex mental and emotional health with my faith practice. It is as though they are on two separate tracks heading in opposite directions. One to do with  my sin and a saviour who washes me clean and gives me eternal life, which, if I'm really honest is difficult to understand at the best of times. The other, was about my personal experience and my desire to have that understood. In the past I have turned to the medical fields but that hasn't helped me transform my inner world. So what has?

There have been many thoughts and ideas over the years that have been extremely helpful and I do believe God has provided them all to teach and guide me. What I am noticing is that I feel like I've done a full circle and there is something quite exciting happening. I find for example a Spiritual director, a psychic, a Pastor, a gay person, a high court judge, a therapist, a historian and a scientist are all explaining stuff about me and God in terms that I understand and relate to in my personal experience and my faith in God. 

For me, the bible teaching can only make sense in the light of everything else that we are learning? I need to be able to link all of these together to make any real sense of my world and to keep my sanity.